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He had robbed you.
You were angry and hurt.
You felt like you were conned and you were in a way.
You could not get past the anger.
I was no contact for about 3 or 4 months and I wasn’t healing.
I was stuck.
The anger was holding me back from healing.
I rembered what a friend had told me years ago about resentment and anger.
I needed to forgive him in order to find peace and move on.
I was able to understand that his disorder has his way of thinking messed up.
Narcissists think different from us.
Their thoughts, emotions and needs are also different.
They have got issues and they don’t know it.
They have no clue that they have a disorder.
Understanding this helped me forgive.
I won’t forget what he did nor will I ever talk to him again but I have forgiven him.
The anger left me.
I don’t hate him anymore.
I was free of the hate.
With the hate gone I found myself feeling a loss.
I started to mourn.
The man I fell in love with was gone.
Never will he walk on this earth again.
The man I knew and loved is dead.
He will never be back because he never existed.
Now he is dead and I have to grieve.
So I’m still struggling with accepting the fact that he is gone and that’s ok.
I have done so much better sine I forgave him.
It is nice not to be angry and full of hate.
It is nice to know that I’m healing.