How Did I Accept The Fact That He Never Loved Me!
As painful as it was I stopped running from the truth.
I started writing.
I wrote out what love looks and feels like to me and it was nowhere to be found.
At the time I was in so much emotional pain.
I couldn’t continue trying to bury what I already knew.
I forced myself to look at his actions towards me and mine towards him.
I was getting the short end of the stick and I had known it for sometime.
One day I finally asked myself if continuing to sacrifice myself for a dead man was worth the pain he was causing me.
The answer was a solid No.
I accepted that he possessed a disorder that would always prevent us from having the life I wanted and was working so hard for.
Whether it’s sooner or later the time will come when you realise how little you have gotten in return for all that you have given.
You will cease being ok with the scales being so unbalanced.
You will realise he has been running you in circles and purposefully keeping an emotional distance so a bond can’t be formed.
You realise he doesn’t care about the pain he has caused you.
You realise he never cared at all.
You stop believing the lie.
You stop telling yourself lies.
You stop fighting for what you never truly had.
You find peace in knowing that he can’t give you what you deserve.
You begin healing.
You begin pouring love into yourself.
You start putting yourself first.
You vow to never allow a person to treat you poorly again.
You learn it is unhealthy and self defeating to pursue unrequited love.
You will step back and look at this person objectively.
Then one day you will wake up and realise that you have let go for good.