I Can See Right Through You Now.
You were really good at playing the nice man card and fooling me into thinking that I have found a diamond in the rough.
When really you just turned out to be fantastic at pretending to be the good man because you are nothing but A Heartless Narcissist.
I’m going to mark this one down as another lesson learnt.
An unfair painful lesson to learn.
You have taught me what to look for though in regards to the traits and types of men I need to steer clear of.
I trusted you with things I didn’t share with many people because I thought you were different.
I guess the real joke was on me.
You wanted me when it was convenient for you which is a very selfish move.
I thought maybe things could change.
We could do it your way for awhile and something would click inside that head of yours.
That somewhere inside of you hiding was this romantic version of you that would come out and sweep me off my feet again.
That you would stop feeding me these I have a lot on my plate lines and I don’t have time for myself because I’m dedicated to helping people crap.
I made countless excuses for you and your behaviour towards me.
Everyone tried to warn me and make me see what’s hidden behind your charming fake mask.
They told me to stay away from you.
They told me that you are not a man of his word and that you have no morals.
They told me I deserved better and they were right.
I do deserve better.
You made me feel bad for caring.
Who does that?
I apologised for worrying about you and for sharing my emotions with you.
You made me feel needy and burdensome.
Now I know that the only person I should really be apologising for is myself.
I should apologise to my heart for letting it get pulled through the ringer again.
I should apologise for letting it go on for so long.
I should apologise to myself for thinking that there was something wrong with me that made me feel undesirable and unlovable.
I had to tell everyone that they were right and apologise for not listening to them sooner because I now know that they were just trying to save me from the tears and the heartbreak.
I know that I’m coming out stronger in this situation so the jokes are on you.
I’m a stronger woman for what has transpired between us.
The moment when it all clicked and I realised that I’m not crazy for wanting more from the one I love.
It may have taken me longer to get there but it’s ok because I’m here now.
At least when I look at my reflection in the mirror I see a strong woman who is going to do great things but more importantly I see a woman who doesn’t need you.
I wonder what you see when you look at yourself in the mirror.
I’m pretty sure you are so far into the charades that the real you is lost in.
Now I see through all your lies and I’m no longer fooled.
There may be a time when you will miss me but you won’t find me then.
I learnt from the best on how to focus on what is best for me and that is exactly what I’m doing now.
Now I can see right through you and I’m no longer impressed by the heartless man who pretends to be something he can never be.