I May Have Never Got An Apology But I’m Choosing To Forgive You.
I forgive you.
This doesn’t mean that what you did or what you said didn’t hurt.
This doesn’t mean that you deserve any bit of my forgiveness.
This doesn’t mean that I want things to go back to the way it used to be.
You did something so unforgivable and you broke my heart in the process.
You were inconsiderate, selfish and never did you think about me.
It is painful waking up each day knowing that the one person who was never suppose to hurt me, did.
You acted like what you did was excusable and that I would be able to move on from it.
You never apologised for your actions, your lies or for hurting me.
You were only sorry for being caught.
My forgiveness is not for you but it is for me.
In my heart I know that in order to move on my heart needs to be free.
Free from feeling bitter, from anger, from sadness and free from you.
For a long time it was so difficult to close a wound that never healed.
All because my feelings were still being controlled by someone who left.
For the first time in a very long time I’m choosing myself.
I choose not to let you bring me down.
I choose not to keep replaying the memories and remembering all your lies.
I choose my own happiness which is something which you could have never given me.
I choose to love myself.
Which is also something in which you could have never given me.
I forgive you for breaking my heart.