I Wish I Could Say You Didn’t Break Me.
It is not just our brief past,
but our nonexistent future.
It is not just that I gave you my heart,
but it is that you still have it.
It is not just all the words said,
but all the words that will go unsaid.
It is not just that you didn’t promise to stay,
but that I believed you would.
It is not just all the good mornings and good nights whispered but the unavoidable absence of those simple words.
It is not just everything we did,
but everything we should have done.
It was never just all the late nights spent thinking about you.
It is not just that I used to dream of you,
but that I still do.
It is not just everything we were,
but everything I thought we would be.
It is not just that I fell in love,
but that I didn’t fall out of love.
It is not just all the time spent together,
but all the time I imagined we still had.
It is not just the memory of you and me,
but the death of you and me.
It is not just the night phone calls shared,
but all the late nights I wasted staring at my phone wishing you would call.
It is not just that you left,
but that I hoped you will come back.
It is not just all the mistakes we made,
but that we won’t be able to fix it.
It is not just that you let me go,
but that you let me go so effortlessly.
It is not just my heart you had,
but my heart you broke.
You see it is not just what we had that hurts but what we lost.