In The Midst Of Our Darkest Fears!
I have always felt that fear needed me somehow.
That in some way it was responsible for my gravitational pull and if I let it go I would be carried slowly off into deep space.
Lost, isolated and set to drift out there forever, I internalised fear even before I had a language to describe it.
It crept namelessly into my life at such a tender young age that I don’t remember the exact moment it became parasitic.
Throughout my life, fear’s intimidation tactics taught me shame and it’s incessant nagging made me capable of summoning superior amounts of guilt.
It also demanded that I constantly relive the past turning unhappy bygone experiences into new anxiety over and over again.
It has influenced me, shaped me and controlled me probably even more than I realise up to this very moment.
Fear is a universal emotion.
It’s life’s greatest manipulator and it is the basic ingredient for all of mankind’s dilemmas.
The gist of experiences that translated into poisonous layers during the early years of my life were abandonment, rejection and death, all three throughout my life have led me to believe it was my destiny to live in the dark shadows of emotional fear forever.
Every downward spiral, every emotional black hole, every bad habit, every bout of anger, sadness, anxiety and every ounce of resistance has led me right back into the arms of fear.
It is stealth and intricate, it grew roots in my life and has branched out into nearly every aspect of my it.
For many of us, fear is how we gauge our next step forward or how we justify the decisions we make.
Fear can be viewed with a deep understanding of life!
Why don’t human beings get along with one another and with nature?
Why aren’t you living the life you want to live?
Working a job you really love?
Why aren’t you expressing, sharing, being who you really are?
Fear influences us into thinking we are powerless, worthless and incapable of our wildest dreams.
Fear can make us believe that we need to be controlled, that we must limit how much we feel and that we shouldn’t trust our intuition.
It can influence us to see the worst in ourselves and in other people as a deadly habit the opposite of living.
My intuition has been telling me for months to let go of the past and to let go of my fear.
In return, I would argue back that this fear and all it’s sorts made me who I was.
So how could I ever let go of it?
And it was true. I was who I was because I made it so.
I also used the excuse that I needed to dissect it more, analyse it and incessantly search the bottom of a bottomless well.
Most of us live in fear anyway.
Why should I make the effort to creep outside of my little cave when most of the people around me are wallowing in it?
Why let the neighbourhood know I would become vulnerable and open to change when I could end up the object of ridicule?
Because fear doesn’t dare to walk alone, it brings with it other Minions aside from the usual guilt, shame and anxiety.
It also invites sadness, misery and a lot of anger.
And anger associates with all sorts of poisons like, jealousy, greed, resentment, frustration, irritability, the feeling of insignificance and rage.
Although some fears protect us from imminent and real danger, much of our fear is out of touch with reality but still the same primitive impulse takes hold.
When we live in a constant state of fight or flight, our organs suffer, our energy dissipates and according to Brian J. Zahn, we allow False Evidence to Appear Real.
You just have to take one step beyond fear.
You can change.
You can help others.
You can make a difference.
You are more powerful than suppression, destruction and fear.
Aggression, punishment and war will never set you free.
Neither will denial or false justifications.
You already know this.
You just have to believe it.
Life then transforms an oppressed hell into a beautiful and worthwhile adventure.
You are not the abandonment, rejection or ridicule you may have experienced and you are not war unless you deem it so.
There is more wisdom in your body than in your deepest philosophy.
Fear is a basic instinct and without it we couldn’t judge real danger.
It took me months to really understand that nearly all of us are deeply afraid of who we might really be.
It can take a lifetime to learn how to distinguish between fear of real danger and the unsubstantiated fear.
Most of us probably never fully learn it.
We are taught unsubstantiated fear from childhood and as we grow up we nurture it with greed and neglect and feed it with anger, what ifs and what should have been.
Haven’t we learnt enough from this type of fear?
It doesn’t work for us.
It never has and it never will.
Perhaps it is worth striving for a deeper understanding of the obstacles that hold us back, the obstacles of unsubstantiated fear.
Once we lose the death grip that fear has on our lives, we are able to breathe and even see a bit more clearly.
We can then investigate deeper into our consciousness, our abilities and find our unique self that is literally dying to come out.
The more we live without fear and the more we invite each other to live without fear, the more likely we will be able to come up with our own unique solutions to solve problems with compassion, creativity, confidence and love.
We can make our own revelations without having to be controlled by our own or other people’s fears.
The world needs you and the uniqueness you carry in your heart, in your being and in your soul.
It doesn’t need another humanoid fear clone.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light and not our darkness that frightens us the most.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us, it is in all of us.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.