It Wasn’t My Plan To Fall In Love With You!!
Love comes unexpectedly.
It comes when you don’t think you are ready.
It comes when you are still hurt and getting over something in the past.
It comes into your life absurdly shaking up everything you have come to know.
And before you can even understand what is happening, you are already head over heals, falling fast hoping and praying to God someone will be there to catch you or better yet, fall with you.
I didn’t plan on falling in love with you.
In fact, everything about you entering my life when you did, wasn’t how I wanted it to be.
I didn’t want to meet someone and I swore I was better off alone.
There were so many factors and so many reasons I shouldn’t have fallen in love with you.
That’s the thing about love ,, we tend to think it’s a choice.
We think we can pick who we love and it goes from there.
Love chooses us whether we’d like it to or not.
I think I just woke up one day and realised that I want to be with you.
I woke up and realised if I could have you by my side every day I would be the luckiest person in the world.
There is a moment before you realise it’s love, you flirt with the idea jokingly as it has been a thought more often.
Then it hits you between the eyes how in deep you are.
After that, there’s no going back.
Maybe it’s a look that you used to not think much of but now it makes you fall to your knees.
Maybe it’s a conversation where you used to wonder, now you know with certainty.
Maybe it’s the tone that’s changed in your voice when you speak about him then you realise you are looking for any reason to bring him up in a conversation.
It’s people seeing it in your eyes.
The look of someone who has fallen completely in love without meaning to.
Then you utter those three words first admitting it to yourself then others and you question if you should admit what you now know to be so strong and so true.
That realisation suddenly makes him every thought in a busy day.
Every first conversation you want to have when you wake up and every last one you hope to have.
That realisation makes everyone else invisible around you.
And no matter who you meet, loving this person puts him at a level that surpasses even the greatest of people you may know.
Because the art of loving someone transforms a normal person into perfect.
Loving someone makes you dismiss every flaw he may have and replace it with an acceptance.
Loving someone teaches you what being selfless really is because here is this person standing before you and you would do anything for him.
Loving someone comes with the risk of knowing he can completely destroy you but you take that chance anyway and overcome it with more hope than fear.
That’s what love really is, a hope and a faith within someone other than yourself.
So no I didn’t plan on falling in love with you but once I did there was no denying what was true.
There was no trying to hide an obvious feeling.
I didn’t choose this.
I used to look at you every day and be happy thinking that you might love me too.
My simplistic hope and what I prayed for is it’s not just me that has fallen but today I became certain that it was!