Maybe One Day Our Paths Will Cross Again.
Everything inside me wants to scream and yell to the entire world how much I hate you and how much I never want to see you again.
But that would be a lie that I couldn’t live with.
As much as I want people to know that you are the biggest heartless man on earth, deep down I don’t.
You have been my inspiration.
The person I looked forward to talking to every single day, the one I could trust with my life and the one I thought would never let me down.
Although I was wrong, I will forever be grateful for you.
You have taught me so much more than I could have ever imagined.
You taught me to love unconditionally and I can never thank you enough for that.
I still miss everything about you.
I still miss your smile and your voice.
I still miss the adventures and the life I pictured we can have together.
I guess all things really do come to an end.
You broke my heart into a million piece and I’m still wondering when the hurt will finally stop.
But I don’t think it ever will and for that I hate you.
I hate you for taking my heart and ripping it into tiny little pieces as you walked away.
As you continue to hurt me every single day.
I will hate that for the rest of my life but I won’t be able to really hate you.
There will never be a day that goes by that you won’t run through my head.
With every word that’s said, something about it reminds me of you.
When I think about your last words, I will always think about screaming Don’t lie!
You said you are going away for just a week but you knew then that it was a lie.
I will always remember crying and remember how you didn’t care.
You just left me there.
You watched me cry and you still had the guts to flat out lie and say that it was all in my head.
After you left, everything inside me broke.
It’s still hard to breathe sometimes when I think about everything that happened and how much I loved you.
All that hurt was because of the person I loved and I know that you don’t miss me and you don’t regret hurting me.
I try to believe that maybe this was for the best.
That you leaving would make you realise what you had and that you needed to lose me in order to find me again.
I know that timing is important and you maybe weren’t ready for me.
Or maybe you were just a lesson.
A lesson to never love someone so much because he will always leave.
Everyday I think to myself Why did he leave?
But then I remember that if someone really wanted me he would have come back by now.
And by now if you have nothing to say then I need to realise that I really meant nothing to you.
Maybe now I will see my worth more than you ever showed me.
I know that you never give up on someone you can’t go a day without thinking about and you did just that.
But then there’s a part of me that wants to fight.
Because what a terrible way of life to take the easy way and to never know what it is to risk everything for what you love.
I don’t think that I will ever forgive you for breaking my heart that way and not even having the decency to apologise for hurting me.
It’s so hard when you miss someone but I know I’m lucky to be missing you that much.
I’m lucky to have had someone worth missing.
You were also lucky to have someone who loved you with everything in her but you gave that away.
I hope that maybe one day you will look back and regret what you did to me.
Maybe one day our paths will cross again.