Rise Like A Phoenix.
I have been there and I’m aware of how arduous it is to win the inner emotional battle.
We have all gone through a particular hurt in the past that transformed us from stable people to damaged ones.
The calamities we sometimes face steal away our self-esteem and worth.
Trusting others becomes a difficult task and allowing someone in feels unfathomable.
And some of us are still dealing with the traumas that have caused us to classify ourselves as emotionally damaged people.
To be emotionally damaged is to find no escape from the emotional turmoil that permeates our life.
We build an immense wall around ourselves in hopes of protecting our wound from going deeper.
The wall is too high and the wound is too big that we are simply not able to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I know how it feels to be emotionally damaged beyond repair.
I know the feeling of being stuck in a painful story that doesn’t seem to end at times,
I helplessly looked for the author so I could beg him to stop writing.
I’m very much acquainted with the suffering of the heart.
I know quite well the feeling of piercing someone’s life only to leave empty-handed.
I’m also familiar with the taste of mud for I fell into it extremely deep.
I know how it feels to fall but I also know how it feels to rise.
The rising is uncomfortable but it’s possible.
To be willing to rise is to believe that we are stronger than any pain, any trauma and any difficulty.
Like A Phoenix I now acknowledge the beauty of obtaining a new life by rising from the ashes where my annihilation took place.
I took off the dress of melancholy and burnt it to ashes.
The sun has showered me with its rays and the moon has greeted me with its light.
For the first time I beheld life and saw who I truly am.
With a hammer I destroyed the wall I had built around my wretched soul and closed the wound with a needle and a thread.
The scar is still there and I have kept it there on purpose to I remind myself that I’m strong enough to overcome my emotional destruction.
You will be repaired and you will rise like I did to soar freely into the air.
Sometimes we are too broken and too damaged that we become blinded by our misery.
We hopelessly believe our calamities won’t ever come to an end.
We think it’s our destiny to live with a hurtful present and a dismal past.
We think we are worthless, weak and unworthy of love.
We think we are nothing but we are not.
We are everything.
And we are not even damaged we are only preparing for our rebirth.
We will rise only when we have had enough of sitting for too long on the ground.
Know that whoever turned you to ashes is buried deep in the ashes himself.
Whoever broke you is broken himself and whoever damaged you was already damaged.
People with heavy baggage opt to drag other people into carrying it with them.
You have carried that baggage and it was heavier than you but it’s ok.
It made you fall but it’s alright.
The truth is sometimes we need a heavy strike to finish us so we learn how to begin again because nothing tastes better than fresh beginnings.
To start again we need to let go of the miserable image we have of ourselves.
To let go we need to forgive.
Forgive whoever caused us to look in the mirror and despise ourselves.
Forgive whoever made us lose faith in love and humanity.
Forgive them for they are victims of their own emotions and miseries.
But mostly forgive yourself.
If I hadn’t forgiven myself I wouldn’t have rose again.
Our stories are different but our pain is the same.
Whatever happened to me, whatever happened to you doesn’t define us.
Use your pain as a stepping stone to reclaim yourself and your life.
Reclaim your dreams and goals.
Take it back and cover it with your hands like the clouds covers the moon at night.
Reclaim your strength.
You never lost it, it was only forgotten.
Find it and wear it like you would wear your favourite outfit.
Let no one damage your capacity to love.
You are love itself and you were born to give it.
Know that no one can make you feel weak without your consent.
No one can damage you without your consent.
You and I have seen the consequences of allowing others to break us.
With little effort from their side and an immense surrender from ours, they had the ability to abolish us.
Know your worth for your worth is wider than the skies and greater than the deepest seas.
Allow no one to diminish who you are.
Build your edifice high enough that others would need the tallest ladder to reach your heights.
Rise and never mind who follows.
It is time to put yourself first.
So put back your wings and fly.
Your healing is a process therefore be patient, be willing and be determined.
I will meet you in the skies of freedom.