That’s What I Was Ashamed Of!!
I guess I should thank you for treating me the way you did because now I know how I deserve to be treated.
I deserve a man who will listen to me.
I deserve a man who will respect me.
I deserve a man who will be there.
I deserve a man who will kiss my tears away, not make me cry.
Thank you for being a liar and a cheater and thank you for leaving me because it saved my life.
I should also thank you for not loving me because now I love myself the way you never could.
I love my scars, because they tell the story of how I survived.
Thank you for leaving when I needed you because it taught me how to take care of myself.
Thank you for being the worst thing that ever happened to me.
Thank you for teaching me what a toxic man looks like.
Thank you for shattering me to bits, just so I could pick myself up and love every broken part of me.
I was ashamed for so long, ignoring everything you did to me.
Hiding from my family and my friends, just trying to hide the fact that I loved such a predator for so long.
But not anymore.
I‘m not ashamed I loved you.
I‘m not ashamed that I trusted you and loved you with all my heart.
I’m just ashamed that it took me so long to understand this.