That’s Why I Won’t Beg You To Stay.

I would have never asked you for forever but it is a good thing I didn’t since you decided to leave.

Now I’m left standing here tears falling down my face wondering where did it all go wrong.

But I can’t live like this.
You left and as much as it hurts I need to accept it and move on.

You meant something to me and this isn’t going to be easy but I can’t continue to feel sorry for myself.

Watching you leave without a second thought might have been the hardest thing I have had to do but I won’t beg you to stay.

You were the one who left.
As much as it hurts and believe me it hurts like hell, I need to remember that if you wanted to stay you would have.

The reasons why don’t matter anymore.
Sure reasons would help but it won’t change anything.

You made your decision and decided that I wasn’t worth fighting for.

So I decided to let you go.

You broke me.
When you left you never looked back.

It was as if I didn’t exist or as if all the time we spent getting to know each other and making memories completely disappeared.

And it hurts more than I ever thought anything or anyone could hurt me.

But that is why I won’t beg you to stay because anyone that could be ok with making me feel worthless shouldn’t be in my life.

I can’t look at you the same way.
I trusted you not to hurt me but you did.
I trusted you to be honest but you weren’t.

Now every time I look at you I can only see the pain you have caused.

I can only see the liar who left without a word.

How can I ask you to stay when you aren’t even the man I thought I knew.

I need to move on.
Begging you to stay was only going to hurt me more.

Taking you back won’t magically lead to a happily ever after.

Begging you to stay will only prevent me from moving forward.

We ended for a reason and I need to accept that.

I’m not saying it won’t be hard but I am saying that I will get over you.

Begging you to stay will only feed your ego and I refuse to do that anymore.

Because I deserve better.
I deserve someone that won’t just walk out when things get hard.

I deserve someone who is willing to fight for me.

And while it hurts that it wasn’t you I will find someone who is.
Someone who won’t break me and leave.

I want to be happy.
I was happy once without you and I know I can be again.

I wouldn’t trade the good memories for anything but being able to look back on us without any bitterness is something that I want to eventually be able to do.

I won’t get there if I’m constantly trying to make you stay.

Letting you go is the only way I will be able to be happy on my own again and that is something I need to do for me.

I won’t beg you to stay in my life because I need to move on for me.

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