You Know Where To Find Me!
After all the tears I shed over losing you.
After all the words said trying to convince myself that I hate you.
And after all the nights I tried to forget the pain I felt after watching you walk away.
I don’t regret a single moment of what we shared together.
The lessons I learnt from you and the friends I made in your absence were only possible because you left me.
I had to learn to love myself and actually to love others.
The hatred you showed me was the only way I learnt that loving you was killing me.
We don’t always understand why we have to lose the things we love the most but in the end everything happens for a reason.
I know that no one wants to hear that dreaded phrase but it’s true.
I couldn’t grow into the person I am today if I continued loving you.
I couldn’t understand it at the time but now I do and it’s all thanks to you.
To tell you the truth, as much as I missed you and still miss you at times but I’m grateful that you left.
Someday I hope we can talk again.
Someday I hope that when you see me you won’t have this hatred in your eyes and that I won’t be scared to thank you.
Even though I know that this will never happen and that you will hate me and punish me for loving you till the end of time, I still want you to know that I will treasure the memories no matter how limited it is.
I want to thank you for all those memories.
I will never forget all the good times, laughs and adventures.
Thank you for playing a part in shaping me into the person I am today.
You have truly helped me grow into a better and stronger person along the way.
I believe everything happens for a reason and even if we weren’t meant to be in each other’s lives forever, I still wish the best for you.
There was definitely a point when I was upset and heartbroken for losing you.
That was inevitable and I’m still a little sad about it if I’m being honest.
But I have learnt the hard way how important it is to live life to the fullest and not to dwell on things like this which seems to be beyond my control.
That being said I sincerely hope that wherever you are in your life and whatever you are doing that you are happy and healthy.
I also hope that one day maybe you will remember me and smile.
Even though I know it will probably never be the same but you will always have a place in my heart.
Just know that I still care about you.
I’m always here for you and my door is always open.
You know where to find me.