Your Cruel Silence!
I told myself over and over that I wasn’t going to let myself get attached.
I said I would keep my distance because people always leave.
But you were different or so you seemed.
You were kind, gentle and sweet.
You didn’t push and you didn’t lie.
You were someone who seemed perfectly compatible to me.
I guess that is where I went wrong.
I assumed I knew you better than I did.
I looked further into your messages and your words than I should have.
I began stupidly analysing the things you said to me and got lost in your facial expressions.
But all it took was silence from you to realise I was in way too deep.
The silence shouldn’t have hurt and it shouldn’t have bothered me but it did.
I should have been prepared and I should have been smarter because I should have known this was going to happen looking back at your history.
If there is one thing I have learnt it is that people leave, people always leave.
Your silence started killing me slowly until it began to overpower me.
It started to make me feel worthless and hopeless.
Your silence broke me down when it started eating me up.
I wanted to question you.
I wanted answers and an explanation of what is going through your mind but I didn’t get any.
You just let the silence grow between us each minute of every hour of every day.
Your silence says a lot more about you than your words ever will.
Your silence said everything I needed to hear and destroyed every ounce of hope I had placed in you.
Because as different as I thought and hoped you might be you turned out to be everything that I feared.
I assumed that you might leave one day.
But I thought you were better than leaving without a word.
Yet again I was wrong.
I got your message loud and clear in the silence you let grow between us.
Sometimes the most powerful thing you can say is nothing at all.
You silence broke me down but it won’t keep me down.
After all we are all a little broken inside.
Your silence might have broke me but I have always been good at fixing what has been broken.